Friday, October 31, 2008

...arghhhh...

...arghhhhh...
...arghhhhh...
...arghhhhh...
...arghhhhh...
...arghhhhh...
...arghhhhh...
...arghhhhh...
...arghhhhh...
...arghhhhh...
...arghhhhh...
i cant stand it anymore

life has been very disturbing lately. every little things pisses me off. its seems that i do not have any control over my life. i hate those idiots who lurks around me. i am so dem piss with those assholes who run around ruining other people's life. basically my red hat is so red today that my face literally turns red whenever i see lurking assholes. my grip tightens. my face turns black. my veins become visible. and my temper becomes the worst you could imagine. just fcuk the hell off my life and leave me alone. i dont want to be disturbed by idiots anymore.

...arghhhh...

...happy hell-o-whine...

...happy helloweens day. halloween's day is the day to mark the beginning of the season of darkness. the history is quite long, but for sure this halloween or rather HELL-O-WHINE is sure a hell of a whining day for me. and today marks one of the hell day. its like the hell gate just broke open and the anger eating demon just got away. somehow i got the anger eating demon and he has been haunting me all these while. the more i get angrier, the more angry i will be and the bigger the anger eating demon will be. i cant stop it. i cant release it. i hate to be in this situation.
yeap, that was the story about the anger eating demon, the more angry u get the bigger it grows. after so many years with incovar, and incovar is so much part of me right now and is totally the entire of me, i cant let anything go just liddat. i am so involved and i will be. and because of incovar, i do understand for the fact that stupid anger eating demon can be easily get rid off and i think incovar has taught me so much that i dont think anyone would believe me that yes, it is a platform to learn.
of course i did learn alot. and the only reason why i am in such hell of a time right now is because i chose to be in it, and i knw for the fact how much pain it brings me; but i still chose to live in it and experience the pain itself. no i wont commit the stupiest thing of committing suicide which i did long long ago; where thoughts, plan and almost action were there. luckily circumstances did not allow me to do so.
i am now here. and i am alive and i hate to be in this situation. yes i am angry. yes i am dem tulan frustrated si beh kiong kan kau lat. i just want to effed up a little before coming back to the moment...

Thursday, October 30, 2008

...signs made visible...

...so many things has happened and so many not so happy moments went by. the good ones were relived at the edge of the forest and the birthday adventure to go. however things has become abit weird lately and that feeling is super 4896! its a huge mixture of happy and anger at the same time. farnee oxymoronic way of life. at one end i feel extreme joy while on the other end, its all about farking anger killing monster eating up my flesh. 48kiongkan : sometimes dem frustrated over so many things that is happening around here. work life has been quite distracted ever since the return from the land of the rising son. apparently the land of the rising son has caused more stir than stick. it stirred up the emotion, disposition the attitude, releasing the negativity. what more the black color amplified the whole process. i dont feel i comfortable. i dont feel at all at ease. and maybe that was the sign i was looking for. i need some cheers back in life...

Wednesday, October 29, 2008

...focus...

...focus : means not distracted by anything but just stare at the notebook screen non-stop, continuously for hours and hours working your ass off; occasionally take a few seconds to put your head back and close ur eyes while taking a deep breath giving an impression that you are sleeping but you are just resting your eyes; skipping lunch; covering your ears with music from nicholas and chatting away in msn most of the time. and i think my wireless mouse batt is running out after being molested by me non-stop for the past 48hours. shucks, no wonder i am not tired focusing. my msn is on. wakakaz...

Monday, October 27, 2008

...happy birthday to me...

...celebrating birthdays for people is different from being celebrated. eventually this day will come. my birthday. my 21st birthday was celebrated at home with my coursemates and school friends. small gathering only. my 25th birthdays to 28th birthdays were celebrated with hundreds of incovarians; which so happens falls on my birthday. turning 33 i celebrated my birthday having scrumptious buffet dinner with my ex-colleagues from iitc at marche; with calvin and werntien and rachel and kevin and loon and gang. it was wonderful; after which we adjourned to laundry bar. they are all special because of the special bonding of people. but never i have such a beatifully planned birthday by xiaothoong working together with tzayeong to come out with something so amazing. no more tears to flow down my chin already. just eternal happiness. they are just my amazingly beautiful kids...

...happy birthday to me...

...birthday adventure...

...my weekend runaway aka birthday adventure was excellent. i outdo myself and challenged myself to the limit, had the most touching moment, wonderful birthday celebration at the edge of the forest and with tears of gratitude and appreciation all thank to my dear sons who took all the time and effort to make my birthday happen; hiding it away from me and making it a shioking surprise, touching deep into my heart that a few tears of joy dropped from my little japanese eyes on the the piece of cake they custom made and desgin for me. that was the best birthday surprise someone have ever did for me. indeed something that i will never want to forget.
ty also challenged me to hike to the waterfall at the edge of the forest; not giving a dem on helping this old bapak thru the slopes and across the fiery water. the hike down the scorching hills of sasanarakkha, the mud covered slopes was really challenging; but the hike up again was really a torture. nonetheless the pool of icy cold water just beneath the waterfalls of sasanarakkha : priceless. my 2 sons have helluva great time jumping up and down the water; pretending to be the next bond while this old bapak just sat by the edge of the waterfalls enjoying the dash of cold icy water on my body. that was my really first time outdoing myself to such extent. this ty and dan sure knows how to make this old bapak gatal.
the birthday adventure did not end there; but continued to penang. with no transport back, no place to stay nothing plan in mind we took a trip up to penang island. hoping that things will turn out good, and it turned out well. dinner had sotong goreng which was fantastic; my favourite, stayed at ty's grandma resort : totally awesome as it comes with laundry and ironing service and tvb drama, supper at the prominent nasi kandar shop : the kandar rice intro by ty was simply astonishing. slept really late and woke up really late for brunch and explore the hills of war museum at maung rock enjoyed a scrumptious steamboat dinner where ty created a new style of steamboat and came out with some creative ways of eating steamboat and had a long journey by bus back to kl at a totally odd hour.
one word sums it all : farkingly awesome and hawt birthday adventure planned by ty and dan!. i am so happy...happy birthday to me...


...my hawt custom made birthday cake...


...daniel, me and ty trying to save the rubber trees...

Friday, October 24, 2008

...wireless@SG...

...22-oct to24-oct. wireless@SG. great to be away for a short period of time...
i have a dem fcuked up week that i almost committed a huge crime of twisting blardy idiot heads off the neck!...

Tuesday, October 21, 2008

...steady...

...a dem fcuking miserable day with full of shits and undeniably fcuked up heat that flows in the datastream made up of binary digits. it is officially declared as the fcuked day since the day i used so many of this fcuked words. been a while.
however fcuked up the jamming in the flow of the streams of binary digits, it ended well tonite; having had a wonderful dinner with my "cousin" and chatting with andrew online; he is getting married this november the week b4 wacana and 2 weeks incovar - been a while i seen him online and i promise to yam seng with him! STEADY!...

Sunday, October 19, 2008

...japan adventure part 2...


...the journey continues...

...continuing on my japan trip. we extended our trip for another 4 days. the next 4 days were extremely tiring where my heels cracked and couldnt walk properly. shucks it hurts dem alot and i was like limping all the way. suzy become our nurse and her small little bag has the most complete set of firstaid.

our first stop was hakodate - south of hokkaido about 5.5 hours from sapporo. initially planned to cabut from dinner early and take a nite bus down to hakodate; however too many nice pictures for me to take and many of my colleagues were swinging on a high note most probably due to the after effects of fermented yeast that they drank and rolling lights of the hall. the nite after annual dinner, we all took a 15 minutes walk to shusukino street for food and to check out the happening nite life again. the very late 1am walk was cold. only 10degrees and me walking like a si beh yau yeng lan si without jacket! but of course the nite life was indeed happening.

travelling to hakodate took us 5.5 hours by bus and when we reached there its almost over lunch and luckily the market was still open. we shopped around the market place in hakodate and the scene was tremendous. beautiful site with all the big huge crabs with prices more cheaper than a melon, scallops all over scattered on the tables. best. food were good. ramen become our diet all the time. slurping the noodles become our favourite past time. walked around the market and later took a slow stroll towards mt hakodate - the ultimate point of where we want to go. on the way there we walked past lots of shopping areas and found a 1050yen shop where everything goes for 1050yen. saw this really cool gift for daniel and instantly i thought this is so for him. and i got it! and saw another gift so right for joey; my colleague and we got it too. dem yau yeng shop. and i am so sure daniel will love it. and of course the ultimate of the ultimate thing to see in hakodate is the nite view. mt hakodate is voted to be the world 3rd most beautiful nite view. simply astonishing. wow. no words i can find to describe the view but just stood there and stare at the view. maginificent. we then took a nite bus back to sapporo and when we arrive in sapporo, we flew to kansai for our next part of our journey in central japan.


...view from the top of mt hakodate...


arrived in kansai just after lunch and we made our way and got a one day jr pass that allow us to travel between osaka, kyoto, kobe, all the way to himeji area. suddenly we got the urge to move to kobe. quickly we threw our luggage in the backpackers and took the train to kobe. and what do we do in kobe? eat kobe beef! 100gm cost us 3000yen. and it really melts in your mouth; because 100gm is literally so small, it melts in your mouth! duh!


...night view in kobe...

then we took the train to osaka kononya to meet the other team there for supper but they mistaken tennojin station as d'only train station in osaka. at least we stepped foot there in osaka. i have personally been there the previous time i was in japan where we shopped at shinsaibashi; shop and shop and shop! so its ok we didn really explore osaka. since it was getting late we took a train back to kyoto. took early nap and woke up to a fresh new day in kyoto.

rented lonely planet on kyoto to help guide our way; we made our journey on bus in kyoto. in my mind i have already planned the few places i would like to visit in kyoto: kiyomizudera temple which was built over 1000 years ago without any nails. we entered thru the nio-mon (gate of the deva kings) and made our way into the temple. then we passed the sanju-no-to (3-storied pagoda) and headed into the shrine to see the kiyomizu-style kannon. then we strolled around the temple and later headed to the otowa-no-taki (sound of feathers waterfall) and we drank the pure water from the waterfall. this is a must go and i am glad i made it there. of course all the way up to the temple and down from the temple are full with shoppings and i believe there is where my dear fren jinhwa found the ultimate gift i want to get from japan - shuriken! yay. found that shop and instantly hooked on their vast display of shuriken and some traditional japanese samurai swords.



...kiyomizudera temple...

next on the list was nishiki market. its a food heaven in kyoto. so many food. so many things to choose from. so many things to buy and 100yen shop beconme our favourite hangout place. since it was getting late we headed over to ginkakujin temple and the path of philosophy. when we reached there it was too late. closed at 5pm. and mind you the sky has become dark at 5 and nite life has just begun. next stop; gion and potoncho. fuiyoh another nite life of japan. i so love walking the streets of japan at nite; watching people, snapping pictures and experiencing the nite wonders of kyoto. my kyoto trip was extremely tired and fun.


...path of philosophy...

travelling by bus was fun. trying to figure out what bus to take to where and to stop in a city where nobody speaks english but everything is controlled by modern technology. with a map in hand, a lonely planet book on another, we travelled the miles of kyoto and made our way to many happening places around the old city.

its a city with a mixture of the old and the new; land of a thousand temples; each located at a strategic location; some hidden in between the modern architecture; women dressed in geisha outfits and mostly in business suit having a drink in the pub and enjoying yakatori before heading home. yea, typically it is how exactly the tv shows it to be but being there and actually walking the streets in potoncho and gion makes all the difference. though we were not living the life of a typical japanese but we had fun travelling and taking the bus; looking at a weird machine infront of all bus stops to check for the arrival of the next bus and eating like a japanese makes all the difference.

heck, i look like a japanese with my small eyes and my bandana on and my samurai style hair thanks to tzayeong my personal stylist, people did mistaken me for a japanese. i had great fun in japan. and i really want to go back there again. this time, its gonna be well planned and i will be well anticipating for the trip. hiroshima; next stop!...


...view of kamogawa (rises from mt sajigikatake)...


...kyoto tower...


...nite view of potoncho...

Friday, October 17, 2008

...my japan adventure...

...japan, again. that was my initial thought of japan. again. sounds sarcastic. yaya, going to japan twice not using my own money is kinda yau yeng. the again feeling popped up because i didnt have any intention at all of going there at all, again. but japan is a country that many would want to go. of course i went. wakakaz. somehow due to my colleagues inavailability to plan; i started to show off my research skills and started planning for the entire trip. fuiyoh, suddenly google earth become my best friend.
our travel itenary is as such - klia transit in singapore to kansai change flight to chitose sapporo. and the entire journey took us more than 10 hours of travelling. upon arrival in new chitose airport, we were greeted by 2 gorgeous geisha. after which we were then transferred to northern horse park south west of hokkaido where we go sit horses - in the cold cold weather sit horses pulak. it was fun though, making helluva noises in the park. malaysian the noisiest group. sei mei. and the girls were oogling at the leng chai from japan.
without any lunch or food intake, we then took a 2 hours bus ride to noboribetsu - the onsen of hokkaido; best in japan and nowhere else. onsen dem sai lei. outdoor onsen with the cold cold weather below 10degrees and the onsen temperature above 40! met a group of my yau yeng japanese colleague in onsen talking about the leng luis and somehow i understand that they were talking about the japanese colleague in singapore. onsen was wow. the effect very gengz. after which the whole body become so relaxed. stayed a nite in noboribetsu then travelled to sapporo.
visited the asahi beer factory, the ishiya chocolate factory - only in hokkaido. chocolates were great. the shiroikoibito - so exceptionally good. wow. great chocolates. then we hopped on to otaru for their famous rokkatei and letao cheese cake. rokkatei only found in hokkaido. two pieces of yellow skin biscuits with a layer of creamy fillings and raisins. oh wow. melts in your mouth. fabulous! then back to shusukino for nite shopping and happening street in sapporo. annual dinner was at renaissance sapporo with tonnes of entertainments. the nite ended with a very high note of all colleagues swinging high. and wah seh, i didnt know i have so many yauyeng colleagues; especially those from japan, taiwan and singapore. wah seh, si beh leng chai and leng lui leh. voluptious body, sexy curves and solid body. hmm, suddenly i felt that i like this company already. wakakakz. after all these ended everyone were so hungry because the portion of the food was so si beh small.
a short 4 days vacation in hokkaido. with people of fun and excited about japan. i really become so interested in japan shopping again with all my wonderful colleagues guiding me to the only in japan stuff that we can buy.
of course my japan trip did not end here. we extended our stay for another 4 days to hakodate, kyoto, kobe and osaka. wakakaz. mebbe i should leave it another time. wakakaz. but let me share a few photos of my trip...




Thursday, October 16, 2008

...memories of japan...

...2 nites in a row with less than 2 hours of sleep. dem yau yeng tired man - took me so long to select, compile, and create the wonderful memories of japan. took more than 10g of pictures from japan; recorded the wonderful moments there, having gone the distance to walk and walk, losing lots of water weight and fats, enduring the cold sei mei weather and enjoying it, nite bus to hakodate, beautiful scenery, great time to run away from day to day operations. i am sure glad to have been to japan; again. enjoy the video; ya my colleagues in this 1-year old company i have been with. they are really a wonderful group of people.
this video is specially dedicated to my colleagues who have brought so much fun into my nine to six life...


Sunday, October 12, 2008

...crabbing...

...i am back from hokkaido and i had a great time telling stories to success who is the only one who would listen to me crab-all-about-it-and-clown-all-about-it about the trip. argh, i need an exit point...