...break-in...

...explosive ideas...

...meow...

...catbert came over to and called my name anxiously. i was concentrating on completing my stuffs so that i can rush for dinner; gastric attacking : no lunch mar. catbert came over and made a silly remark on a high pitch tone voice eyes big big mouth open wide like a silly alligator and farted out the simplest of the english language word known as "bai". what the fuck! yea, this time i said it out loud instead of the usual wtf. meowww...

...still hanging around...

...the truth is always nice to hear. almost everyone shares the same sentiment. we are all in a boat where everyone complains about the same thing but the captain does nothing about it. however there have been lots of rumours flying around about the latest addition in which more bitching is about to happen...

...cny blast...

...cny blasting of ideas. something i created after a whole long process of thinking and conceptualizing the whole design for the namecard. so many thoughts comes to mind. finally settle for this design. i think it worx perfectly...

...cny explosion...

...explosion of cny rantings. i love the peace and quiet of this time. no explosive bickering and bitching of relatives and family members...

...sometimes i dem blardy hate the cny advertisement shown on the tv. fcuk it. i totally fcuking blardy hate it. it is the only time the only advertisement that makes me shed the dem blardy tears from my eyes. 2008 cny i was alone at home figuring what it was like to be in kl after 33 years of celebrating cny in kuantan. i felt more relax and free home alone. i didnt regret a single bit of being in my hometown during cny. however i have made kuantan my so called hometown for the past 33 years. the advertisement didnt make it easier for me. 2007 pertonas advertisement first triggered my emotions by showcasing the old ladies talking about their children. i really hated my home as i didnt feel i belong there at all. 2008 petronas advertisement shows a little boy waiting for bus and going home to the orphanage. i totally scuked and fcuked myself as i have a home to go back to; however i didnt feel i belong home. thus my nature of staying out late and coming back to "the" room in the wee hours. i have a home. i didnt feel i belong there. 2009 petronas advertisement shows a man who hated everything the father did and annoying stuffs of a father; from the simplest no cockles in char kuay teow to singing karaoke. i totally hated to speak to the person whom i call mother. i totally cried when i saw all these ad on tv. it reminds me so much about how fcuking idiot i am. i fcuking hated the people i have at home. if i have the chance, the first thing i would do is to move out and get a place of my own. fcuked it. i cant bear another moment there. and fcuked it stupid petronas ad to bring me to the moment of time that i totally fcuking despise. happy cny to those around...

...birthday wishes...

...HAPPY BIRTHDAY AARON TAN...

...pre-cny...

...now i got the hang of golf. my first few times of golf was with loon and gang but i never knew how to actually hit the ball. i thought i knew and i was determine to play and was rather egoistic and showy off when ty asked me to play. that was my very first time i played in years. i was so into golf that nite that i wanted more. and we had more of golf. ty, daniel and me went for another round of golf again. and with ty's simple instructions, i finally got it. it was fun and enjoyable. daniel just got it. we had a great nite celebrating this pre-chinese new year. with bak kut teh as our reunion dinner served on the table, and a round of golf with a whole nite bragging and chatting till the wee hours of the morning, 2009 year of the ox began with a delightful sensation and beautiful memories. i had a wonderful nite out. send daniel back back and reached home with a beautiful early morning sleep..

...wishes...

...23.jan.aaron.tan : 24.jan.kevin.lee : 25.jan.pevin.yeo. happy birthday guys...

...golf again...

...i am still thinking of my golf session with ty last nite. looking at my palms right now, the pain is still there. the blsiters grew bigger by the hour. the pain in the joints were felt severely later. was really unprepared for the game of golfing; striking a dark blue shirt and a black pants and shiny leather shoes with shoelaces, with my sleeves pulled up and shoes off; i bend my knees and blardy hell hurts like hell. but i persevered. slowly adjusting my grip with my right index finger locking my little left finger and thumbs pointing directly downwards; adjusted my right arm to be straight, my left arm to swing and my wrist to do the moving and the whole body twist to my right side a little, pull the club back and wack on the ball. the sound of the wacking on the ball seems to be fantastic. perfect sound. must be able to fly. fuiyoh; dunno where the ball went ler. staring out in the driving range, looking for the ball, still cannot find. thought i was like so dem pro already. but mana tau looked down, the ball still there intact. basket. memalukan nia. cheh. quickly pretend and ty would look at me and laughed. wakakaz. we enjoyed laughing at each other on the missed balls. an awesome game of golf man...

...JOY of golfing...

...i went and play golf with ty just now. suddenly out of no where ty ajak to play golf at the driving range in kota permai. got 200balls to hit.hand full of blisters now. dem pain. knee is still very pain now. especially when i tried to lower some part of my knee to adjust my body to hit the ball. fcuk, sibeh pain man. was a good workout session though. sweating like nobody business. which was what i seriously needed - the heck out of me to sweat! after which we just sat there enjoying the moment. wah seh. my hands are dem tiring. but it sure feels dem good to be on track again. the pain brings JOY back to life again. wakakaz. ty is having lots of JOY also. heck i dont even know how to hold the golf club. dem paiseh. lucky the last lot was still available and not many people around that time. wakakaz!...

...PBTE...

...this too shall pass. suddenly become so engaged and i felt better after talking about it. yea, its been in my blood for so long already. its been flowing intensely all over my head and its just got boiled. reached the boiling point and everything just came out. but i am glad i talked about it. and release all the pressure boiling inside. taking a deep breathe now, i think i feel more comfortable now; knowing that this too shall pass and my second "family" will always be there to support me in times of need. i am going for PBTE now already...

...u've been good?...

...a short visit to lowyat turned to a long chat with daniel until the wee hours in the morning at starbucks moneyriver. time flies. the quiet of the nite was drowned with the speeding cars and showy-off loud engines. every sentence had to be paused for the loud buggers speeders to pass. despite the late hours of hyped up discussion, today, felt more energized after the long constructive feedback session of all the things that is happening and how to make it better. glad that we have one thing in common; that is wanting the better for something and someone. next step will be my action plan to get certain things moving. i dunno how much i can do and i dunno who else will be supporting me, but i think its about time i voice out something or to do something to kick ass.

its about time i give christmas presents to those who have been good.

atch out those who were involved in our discussion, you will definitely feel the heat...

...alive and kicking...

...two days of steamboat in a row. wakakaz. first it was the tigers vs monkeys steamboat by meng kor who so happily organized for us. it was great to catch up again with old colleagues after such a long time but somehow i sense abit of strange as we could not connect well during the dinner. mebbe the long absence. however not, we are so happy to be back together bitching around and constantly striving so hard to restrain from unkind words that screw people asses.

while we were on the topic of screwing, i have been constantly being irritated by maxis services recently and they are totally fcuked up. nobody CAN DO ANYTHING there. and if this post shows up in any search engine, YES MAXIS SUCKS. despite it is known as MAlaysia Xcellent Service. should be more of MAhai tiukaokaoXService. customer service staffs are practically; if i may use the word STUPID. no consistency in what they say. basically i can summarise them to be TOTAL FCUKED UP company. shitty services. useless service staff. and brainless people. argh shcuks stupid ma-fcukedup-xis.

and i had a great wonderful nite having steamboat dinner with daniel and ty.been awhile we sat down and talk crap and business; and they both are quite skilled in business sense too. very entrepreneurial as well. lots of ideas churned out. lots of daring pursuit. outnumbering the risks to be taken. somehow i wish the company i work with is capable or not.

i think its simply exciting time for them; for us to kick butts. as one person, not many things can get done. as a team; passionately involved coupled with skillful means, anything can happen. especially big bucks. because small people talk about small things. big people talk big. great people shares great ideas. we are totally in the category of great people. of course we are. wakakaz. now its time to implement the ideas and put them to work. its no longer just an idea. its a reality. lets kick ass guys...

...fine example of making things happen...

...reliving the memories of sevenDEC2009. let me start off with saying a few not so nice to hear words about the event that really gets on my nerves and made me commit speech crime of over indulging in unkind words. fcukeddammit. dammit. yes. goddammit.

the first impression already not good. giving me the idea that "why do u ask me to lead when u already planned all ur leaders thing" during the first meeting lagi boh shiok. when people start arguing, its when we know things went wrong somewhere. however daniel and tzayeong that time dem semangat to get things done. phew. and of course not to mention incovar time leh. allex, me and karwei was super tiedup during the fcukeddammit we were "thrown" into a hidden room. far away from existence. fcukeddammitcommittee who dunno nuts about anything.

dem lucky my enterprise manager tzayeong managed to twist thing around and make it work. he done up the room so dem nice that it is beyond words can say. truly salute him for going beyond boundaries, making things happen and getting things into order. the way he manages things, run around getting things ready, setting up the place, preparing the hot seats, getting the deco up etc. super efficient. from a days work, without stop and without complain he managed to turn the set into something seriously so spectacular beyond imagination. his photography corner become a photography studio. and that earned him the respect from all over.

and of course daniel, being the project manager for the event lead the photographers well. from song in the portraiture studio to karwei and aaron covering the event hall and pevin and mj covering everywhere else. song's gf peiyun collecting the money, kokwai running up and down for me. my project manager lead them well; from directing them to the right spot to encouraging them to take certain angle shots to coordinating the people, getting people in the room, framing, interview session, covering every aspect of the event is indeed marvellous. all the photographers listens to his words and his direction. all my photographers respected him for what he say and do. my photographers are truly amazing lot.

i could not ask for more with these two sons working on this project individually that brings people together as a team and producing such an amazing video at the end. with such short time and pressure coming from all directions, they managed to get things up with such great quality. the video is superb. amazing compilation within a few hours. storyboard - excellent. beyond words could say.

just that it was not shown to the audience. some fcuked up things in the org itself which i do not know what the heck is wrong. i am totally piss. why? because all the hardwork we all put in. the dedication we had. and all we wanted was 5 minutes of time to show the memories of the fcukeddammit. but fcuked. its only 5minutes and we are not even spared. just 5minutes of video from a full days of hardwork and months of planning. fcuk!

just sharing the beautiful memories of how tzayeong and daniel both students in college is able to excel so well and able to make things happen so real...

...i love my christmas present...

...my 3 sons gave me a christmas present. something that i so wanted to get one for myself but didnt get it. somehow they knew about it and they got it for me for christmas. so happy. jack, daniel and tzayeong. thank you guys for the present. i love it. probably the most expensive christmas present i've got. i love u guys. thanks...

...new year new island to venture...

...pulau ketam photography trip? how was it? sensational! will post up pictures once i got it from ty. totally awesome trip. no planning. no thinking. hassle free. 3 good friends. 1 great place. crab island.

with bkt for brunch and dinner. with lala goreng for tea. with shooting colored crabs under the hot afternoon sun. with our bmw's roaming the whole island. with our gears dashing thru the whole island. a nice village. dirty smelly and disgustingly yucks; however the scenery is fantastic. the old houses on stilts. the family ties. i see families cleaning and repainting their houses for cny. washing the floor. painting their gates. nope. i never been thru all those before. just something i thought i would not enjoy doing but enjoy watching. like tvb drama. dramatic. life there is so slow. peaceful and quiet. song asked me would i live there? absolutely no. however i would like to help preserve the culture there and snap more pictures mebbe next trip i will snap each and every house there in crab island to capture the entire essence of crab island and map out their lifes in my book. salute to u crab island for being so disgustingly dirty yet amazing.

yea. sensational is the word to describe it. heck its the name of my magazine to be produced soon. and of course the most awesome was the eagle chase. beautiful shots by tzayeong. great skills shown by him. he is excellent with the 40d. and the eagle he shot. simply astonishing. superb dear friend...

...taken by tzayeong using canon eos40d...