...the time of the year...

...being the one in the spotlight once a year makes me feel uneasy. the feeling of the one in the middle of all attention sometimes freaks me off. its different when you are the emcee or the organizer who runs the event where being in the centre of attention is what i crave for, this time i feel awkward. yeah, the big 3-2; coming of age. got 2 cakes – one from dear (left) and another from incovar friends (right).

dear bought me a cake with blueberry toppings. hmm, dear knows my craving for blueberry cheesecake; of course the one i bought for uncle loon is my favourite among the many flavourings and designs. i had a wonderful time with dear.

at night, had late dinner with the incovarians friends. fred came to my place and pick me up. while waiting for the rest to arrive, we chatted and ate and chatted. the rest arrived an hour later and the table was not enough to fit everyone in. elsf was busy distributing her wedding invitation when suddenly her feng-feng-nism came to live again after a long silence. fred was busy teasing kengyan and everyone else just blended in the farnee chats and interesting topics while munching on the roti tissue. incovarians bought me a tiramisu cake. oh i could just be on cloud 9. coffee indulgence with tiramisu. ended the night with a long chat with fred.

colleagues were the next gang to celebrate the big 3-2. as usual the garden 2 tables tradition not to be missed. though no cake, no surprises, no nothing to shout about but it was the simple act of kindness that melts my heart. and wt arranged for a quiet dinner later in the night. had another session of inspiring chat with wt on alex’s hat and fred’s personality+ and how we can use these in our daily lives.

great big wonderful day. tiring. fun. excited. and of course received tonnes of sms and y! from friends all over. thanks to loon for helping me to publicize to all too. and had the longest msn chat with my friend success in 5 months.

happy birthday to me…

...changing.perspective...

...just spent the past 13hours watching tv nonstop. not nbtd but watching tv gives me inspiration. i watch tv to get inspiration for my design work. tv is an alternative way for me to see things in a different perspective. each tvshow/movie tells a different story. each stories brings about a different inspiration that allows my creative mind to work. what i view will change the way i view things. recently bugged with so many issues and problems, tv allows me to make so many channel changes that provides me with the many alternatives to the opportunities to see things in a different perspective. tv controller is in my hand and i can change the channel. i have found my right tvchannel and the right perspective. changing perspective...

...a date with g2k.gq.m&s...

...work has been so hectic lately. so many wonderful surprises and negative comments to come with. even a small chat becomes a point of negative impact. casual unassuming talk can make someone so suspicious of my intention. i was remarked for being unintelligently speaking to the wrong person. i was marked down to be the unintelligent one. i msg jus when i was this close to quitting. i opted out and i dont really care anymore. jus told me not to make a desicion in a hurry. i need to get out of all these mess. i need a break. i need to get out.

and i took the opportunity to follow wt for shopping. from g2k to m&s and gq. the shirts were going on a wild price cut. gq has this fine looking piece which cost rm149-20%. wt got that. a fantastic buy. i headed to smalltho. and got a pink shirt at rm119-70%. shucks. what the heck. 70%. as we wondered further and further, the shirts seems to get better and better and the price seems to have awfully cut down. a g2k black shirt with some unnoticeable shining lines vertical down cos rm69 with a size 15.5. i just needed 0.5 bigger to fit in it. 15.5 fits so perfectly that i suddenly look 10kg slimmer. wt was surprise i look so much slimmer already. i gotta return there when their new stock arrives. i just look so good in them. m&s has this stunning shirt which cost rm69 and i gotta get that too. the shopping spree ended with me getting a pair of jeans and a pink shirt for work. wt got more than what he initially went for, the jeans. and both our spending totalled up to 600 over points for wt's jcard!

after trying on so many nice shirts and nicely fitted pants and mod look with wt, i lost memory of all the unhappy stuff that is wandering in my head. i was relaxed. i was feeling better and i dont need people to tell me who i am. or stuffing words into my mouth. i just needed to feel good again. and this shopping spree has altered my messed up fcuked up world. i knew if i just change my view a little and tune into a different frequency, i would have survived this turbulence. i am glad it did. thanks wt for a pleasant shopping experience. bangkok for next price efficient shopping experience?...

...ppl.ppt.mosq.noss.pakar...

...had the most amazing 7 hours meeting/discussion/bugs collection/requirements/enhancement session with the users where i have no idea what those stuff are. suddenly need to take over the whole session. knowing nothing, heck i dont even know what is ppt, ppl, ppt-khas, ndt, mosq, noss, iktiraf, skm, pakar, psm. and i had to go thru the entire session trying to figure out what is what and how does the system flow and trying to squeeze as much info from the developer if we have this or that already in the system and i cant get any info at all and that i knew from the very moment, its gonna be my own battle against the whole team in mlvk. i was totally lost, not sure what to do, how to proceed. according to users, many things were left undone for the past years and they have been waiting for us. huh, waiting for us to take action. the difficult thing is that the issues/bugs reported are not tracked using the ever famous 'its' and its like duh.

pity the users also ler cos its puasa time and they had to explain the whole thing to me again. and they have explained to iitc many many times but no action. and i kept on asking and asking and asking. cos, i dunno. i had to ask. project closure? nah i seriously dont think so. warranty over? sure is, but who's gonna get it solved now. nah, i am just exhausted from the day session. not complaining, just expression of todays displeasure.

we inspire dont we...

...flabbergasted...

...i had a very long unassuming chat with the external hr consultant this evening and i heard the most 'amazing' news from him. i was flabbergasted...

...nbtd...

...rm3 for charity. one for your car windscreen?...

...feasting.fasting.eating...

...he feasted like a hungry caveman. he ate like a perfect gentleman. we had our break-fast dinner @ the prestigious s.a.club. located high up on a hill, overlooking the hazy friday nite view of the royal town, the scenery : simply magnificent. overlooking our table was this fantastic olympic size swimming pool; the glittering water shimmered like a gem in the ocean. food was so so only though in fact s.a club is known to be one of the elite class place for the residents around the royal town. the club was overpacking with sardines of people; had to park all the way downhill and had an excrutiating walk up the hill. shucks! but the walk uphill and the tiredness and exhaustion is soon subsided by the oh-so-wonderful view. we drank some red-wine look-a-like drink and ate roasted mutton and beef, so inviting with the beautiful rendang beef served with the yellow looking rice. ahh, my stomach is happy. and i made my boss to promise us that if we manage to get 10 sites to go live in jan07, we will get a free trip to bangkok. yay, thts our next short term goal. team, lets make this happen...

...nbtd...

...i'm.lovin.it...

...what happens when a sanguine.phlegmatic fren (A) and a choleric.melancholic fren (B) sits in mcd for breakfast with other frens of sanguine.choleric.melancholic, a choleric melancholic and a high melancholic.phlegmatic (C). the other 2 character shall sit back and enjoy the fun and laughter.

the s.p (A) guy loves telling stories. the stories are usually engaging and flowery. i luv to listen to this s.p (A) fren chit chatting. this fren exerts some mysterious aura that catches everyone's attention and focus when his gengz voice comes from within. i am usually hooked with the environment of the voice leading and guiding me. so, this s.p (A) and the c.m (B) were having a chat. the s.p (A) usually say words that is so challenging that most of the times it is pronounced wrongly. and with 2 highly m (B and C) on the table, i cant help it but to laugh at the moment when these two highly m (B and C) people striking out the wrong words and the mis-pronounced word of the s.p (A) fren. i so look forward for the thu mcd morning with these guys.

and the enjoyabe thing is when (A) is being corrected, he doesnt at all find it offended partially due to his high s in him. these 3 fren (A), (B) and (C) can stand at the site of each other and even though different in personality, they clique well and by knowing each other better, they can synergize their energy to produce something harmonious in their relationship. what really goes within internally is hard to know, but the extremely good attitude of them chatting out a harmoniuous conversation strikes me good. of course if another fren of sanguine.choleric comes along, it will be a no say kind of morning breakfast session.

its interesting how we have known their personality, how we have got to know them closer helps to maintain a healthy relationship. knowing who we are and knowing other people's personality helps us to understand others by understanding ourselves.

we all know who we are and why we act the way we do, we can begin to understand our inner selves, improve our personalities and learn to get along with others. once we understand how to bring out the best in us, we will find that others look better too.

...hohplawst...

...kuhn-surn.skâr.in-stuh-bil-i-tee.lawst...

i guess that is what everyone is going through right now. and not sure how are all these gonna be addressed. to sit and hope means i am not doing anything. to leave it to the people to decide, i dont think i am able to sit tight and not voice out and see bad things goes awful and good things becomes a dream. [hohp_lawst]

...7early8early...

...seven early eight early woke up to a monday morning and rush to office. rushed to putrajaya for a meeting. progress report meeting for espkm. a project i took over which i do not even know why? thinking that most of the things are over but no...how wrong was i. even towards the project closure, all the changes comes and all requires me to do the ia. an hour meeting with the big bosses and they agreed to close the project on oct19. where i need to do the project handover, source code handover, database, passsword, transfer of technology, teach them how to backup, assist them in taking over the entire project. and of course, by then i would need the user manual updated, the data dictionary done and of course the bugs all settled. and how am i gonna get all these done. not forgetting i have yet to compile and do the ia for tms which is way pass overdue. besides getting screwed for my tms stress test for not sending the report out much earlier. arggh! after that progress meeting, was dragged into another meeting with users and such a time wasting meeting. i dunno how to put some senses into these guys, i am not here to listen to you guys discuss about your requirements. just give it to me and i will analyse it and feedback to you later. imagine sitting in the meeting for 2 hours. duh. time wasting people. then another meeting where i need to go check on what happened to the printing of certificate and apparently the whole of psm modules have problems. and of course the changes was done by your good fren who needs to buy ram to increase his memory. double duh. ok. tiring and headache. had lunch at 3pm. sleepy also. but have to drive. haih. and upon reaching back office, gotta do that aptitute test. shucks. i find the test pretty stupid; if they were to pay a fortune to get the assessment test papers for us, i think they have just wasted their money. just my opinion ler. and i thought its gonna be conducted in a more professional way since they have external consultants to help us. there were alot of grammar and spelling mistakes in the test paper and i wonder who donnit. and some of the questions i find it quite retarded. so, i challenged the paper and put in some of my thoughts to make it right. any why all the money was wasted. and the personality test, i guess nobody appreciates it since its free and direct from the book. of course iitc is not charged for it. so who pays attention anyway. headache day for me. lets see how everyone fares for the test. lets keep an open mind first and see the outcome of the test, which i think is gonna be quite retarded. hopefully the results is gonna look more professional than the question paper itself. i personally find mbti and disc profiling more appealing and accurate in predicting my charater and the job that is suitable for me. wakakaz...

...rachel's.wedding...

...was at rachel's wedding luncheon all the way south to batu pahat which is about 3 hours drive. long exhausting ride there. luckily kevin drove. only 3 of us from iitc were there. 70+ tables i guess. big banquet hall. complete with stage and 16 power spotlights. 3-3 layered cakes joint with a small little bridge. and of course beautiful food. great stuff. tiring weekend. by attending this wedding, i missed out meikhee's wedding and hoeyfeng's wedding. 4 weddings in 2 weeks. duh to my wallet ler...

...lantern.nite...

...mid.autumn.celebration.@.iitc...

at least the cheers and laughter of friends and companionship makes a huge difference to the mood setting. the bright shining moon sends positive signal to the dark hazy nite. there is still hope...

...truth.of.change...

the leaves on trees they wither and fall.the trees will tumble no matter how tall.all the flowers they wither and die.and we will perish, that is not a lie.the truth of life is that everything changeseverything changes with time, no denying.i know that from the start.nothing remains the same.cause the only truth in this world is change.i see my friends they come and they go.been to many places, high and low.i see the children grow up to be.they are so blind, why can’t they see that.in times of trouble, don’t you worry.our life on earth is like waves in the sea.things they pass us by and by.the truth is change, no one can deny.no denying.i know that from the start.nothing remains the same.cause the only truth in this.world is change.cause the only truth in this world is change.

indeed, everything changes. the truth of change is that nothing is permanent. but how do we look at change? some of us may not like changes. some dreaded the change. iitc has been going through many faces of change recently. the resignation, the ask-to-go-to-avoid-wastage, the blueprint, the test, the drastic change of roles, etc. i hated every single bit of it. i hated it because it was stupid change. i hated it because its a drastic change. i hated it because because of the change, the current problem is not addressed. i hated it because i still have so many things to do and the issues is not addressed. i hated it because it doesnt solve the existing problem. i hated it because its alot of talking. i hated it because its making more people feel sked. yes, in the long run it will be good. of course, its gonna be a great blueprint for us all. yea, i could see that in longer term, things will be moving well. yea, the blueprint is very ideal and yea, life is not as simple as that. to manage a good project in change management we need to anticipate that the change itself is a change. if we want to achieve an ideal situation and ignore all other environmental issues and fail to look into it, how good are we at managing the change also relfects how good are we at anticipating the change. what comes with the change in change management before the ideal results is achieved? the change itself is already hard to handle what more when it comes to dealing with people. a change management manager needs to know the people, the psychology of the people and the way how change can be placed upon. the change management manager also needs to be a people person. results to achieve - yes. goals and objectives - yes. vmgo - most certainly. but the single most important is the handling of the people and manage the change management itself. change is a transitional period. change is good when viewed correctly. change will help. but please look at the current problem and anticipate the change. nobody ever washes a rented car. its easy to say how easy to wash a car. but if you have been renting a car all your life, how would you know how to wash a car. theoretically it may be easy. come on, dirty your hands and move with the beat. feel it. changing for the better. experience tells us the great pleasures of being in the change...

...september.september...

...yes. i am back. its been more than a month now. the whole of september has been filled with tiring jobs and rushing for deadlines.
sept 1 : rushin to complete the dem espp modules. so many loopholes. screw ppl's ass.
sept 4-8 : ewallet card. darn stupid project. deliverables alot. money little. effort countless. duh
sept 11-15 : tms stress test preparation. wallet card requirements. metropolitan kickoff meeting.
sept 18-22 : metropolitan best business practice. genting-inti support. tms. espkm. pnc pulak!
sept 25-29 : tms stress test in pedas/ciast. 2 sites. rushing up and down kl-pedas, tired. ewallet specs completion. metropolitan. genting-inti complaints. espkm espp duh requirements. pathetic conversation with duh programmer...