...1000pm...

i left office @ 10pm last nite. dem tiring these days...

all my outstanding design work for this week...

1. logo design for incovar...
2. i-gemz album cover. (0122383857 - dunno who, asking me to complete design)
3. receipt book design for bgf.
4. t-shirt design for incovar

sei mei...

...so sleepy today...

today so sleepy arr...yesterday slept at 2.30am. woah. dem late man. was chatting with a fren who just came from far away.

it was nice catching up again after so long. we chatted from work, to personal things and future plans. the bad things that happened, the good stuff that came our way, and future travel plans.
amazing, we just sat beside the bed and chatted for as long as the nite took us. it was a cool nite, nice weather, though the room was in a organised mess, but there is nothing stopping us from a good and inspiring chat.

thks dear for a great nite.

...another email...

i received this email when i came to work on monday morning...

Dear Guys,
During the project I may sometime spoken something that hurt any of you guy’s feelings. Here I would to say im sorry. I know everyone is stress out. I myself also always strife for success and may again do things that may indirect hurt people feelings unintentionally.
I heard a lot of people said im not a good team leader for student and doesn’t know the business rules well. I hope to do better from now onwards. Hope you guys can work with me again as a team and onwards for success.
If Richard still feel im incapable as a team lead role, im happy to step down, if he can find someone to replace me. The progress of student is currently at 80%. But 20% of it is still pending with issues. Im still resolving matters as things days goes on. As the student document is quite general reference, im happy to help out anyone whos going to step in as new student module team lead.
As everyone know, im hearing a lot of rumors of saying Richard wanted to fire me personally. I myself think these things are not true, as I didn’t do anything terrible to harm his feelings at all. Please keep your thought to yourself and don’t spread bad things about others. Some rumors even go as far as saying I said other people stupid and don’t listen to their ideas. As sometimes I may like to joke around but I don’t like to critize people. Again I apologize if my dry jokes run dry on myself.
We should work as a team and not go for each other throats. No one is 100% perfect. I don’t need recognition of me spending long hours doing my job as I think everyone in the team is working at least as hard or even harder than me. Again im sorry of not turning up early on Saturday,Mar 26 2005. I was bit unwell as too much lack of sleep ness night.

...this guy is obviously depressed over the rumours that the pm is gonna fire him. i approached him and being the good colleague, i asked him what happened? he then told me that person x told him tht hr is holding back the warning letter to fire him. then, this guy go and tell 2 other person to be careful cos anyone could be next. then, this email was sent to the entire project group. now, who is spreading the rumours. but, sometimes, i feel sad for this guy cos he has some problem with his eq, which leaves him feeling-less and sometimes doh'. later, the pm approached me and asked me to write down all the no-feeling, bad attitude things of this guy. i was like, wtf...u pm, u write ler...

talking to this guy is like the worst. he inform u the things that u inform him to do. doh'! he bites his fingers. and he always forget things. being forgetful did not motivates him to write it down. he thinks in the box. he lacks of communication skills. btw, everyone is telling me the same thing about him. hmmm...and he is holding one of my biggest module in the entire project...goodness. sei mei...

...working this saturday...

i am working this saturday. yet another day added to my unofficial leave.

my leave story makes ppl sad. u see, i am supposed to get annual leave of 24, but this year, got cut down to 19. change of policy worr...stupid company. on top of that, i have additional 7 days brought forward from last year. and also, i have 6 more days to clear which hr was so leniently allow me to bring forward from last year. and also, when i was in chiangmai last year, we had to work thru weekends. that that gave me additional 10 days of leave. in total, this year i have 19+7+6 days of official leave (32 days) and 9+1 unofficial leave (1odays). tht means, i have 42 days of leave to clear. wakakaz...can clear meh?

today i was chatting with aaronation about going off for a holiday. dem sienz in here. i just feel like taking a drive all the way to PD and just sit back and relax there. dun care about anything or anyone, just to get away from kl. i am beginning to feel sienz and the pressure is killing me. i just wanna get out of here. apparently, aaronation has a rm498 package to impiana. impiana is a nice place in cherating. been there before. but not many trees there though. yea, aaron lets drop everything and just go off!

my colleague, miew is going to surat thani, koh samui backpacking. and taking some days off. wish i could follow.

i am flying to bangkok again on may 11 till 15. will be helping in doing the programs for the ybat-ybam exchange program. my main objectives, to help den with the programs, not yb*m? why? i never like yb*m and how they do things there. its just from my perception anyway. nothing personal. just that its rather stupid they way things are done there.

i wanna get out of here. i am tired and i am sick and sienz.

pleez help....

...friday already...

its friday already...

on monday, i was attacked. i was hurt. i was feeling terrible. then tuesday i did not turn up to work due to my bad scars and bruises. i dragged myself back to office on wednesday despite the bad bruises and scars. and survived thursday and friday too.

life has been pretty tiring these days. my workload is so high, i am doing my project managers work, helping him to do timeline and project plan. working closely with all the programmers and ap's to manage their timeline, overseeing their progress. i dunno why i am doing it for my pm. i know if i don do it, then my pm is gonna fail big time in it and nobody knows the timeline at all and nobody know where we stand. i am looking forward for a huge big promotion now. if no one can see the work i am doing, that is based on my initiatives to push to get things done, then i don see the point of staying here anymore. i get bad remarks from my hr. i get criticised from hr. imagine, hr criticising staff. shouldnt they be encouraging or ensuring ppl get job done well? but, anyway, DO I CARE?

my dear page me just now. i am happy and glad that my dear and i talked and chatted. dear is coming down this 29. am so glad...will have more time to chat then...

...i love mondays...

attended ktekng's wedding dinner and was made the committee member for his wedding. hahaha, didnt know there is such a thing called committee member for a wedding.

helped him with the slides show and stuff. was indeed a memorable dinner, cos the projector doesnt work. the restaurant doenst know a thing about it. rush back all the way to bgf to get the projector. got it connected, and voila...everyone had a good laugh with the slide show. i am glad. thanks to sern for the fantastic idea. hmm, sern..more ideas har...:D. everyone loved the slides show. everyone had a great laugh.

i met wai kheong at the dinner. lewis's housemate from uni. he got married to my junior at uni. was quite surprise. i was like, so, u guys are meh meh alredi. then they answered, ya, we meh meh alredi. it was nice to meet up again.

sat and sun was spent doing the slides for the wedding dinner. was tiring and sleepy and quite rushing. hmm, must learn up som video editing liao...for future slides show...wakakaz.

well, the busiest week is over now. and back to reality. work and incovar and application forms now. ktekng's wedding is over and is now to invoice him for all the unfortunate or rather fortunate events during the dinner.

got to get my documents printed so that can invoice out to clients...!! and i am not feeling well today...:(

...busiest week...

this week has been the busiest week ever.

i need to come out with incovar application forms and newsletter, supposedly by 11 march which is like, duh' today....

and then i was asked to do outreach. i was like, what? me do outreach? and onli given like 3 days. i started doing it on monday, kenot finish, then continued on tuesday...but got programmers meeting, so didnt get to do. come wednesday, last minute boss ask to stay back. stayed until 2am. went home, too tired. thursday went to work. try to finish it. then thu nite its musical puja. dem tiring. but got it completed with daily rushing for it. but then, didnt complete the application forms and newsletter, but put the writeup in outreach instead...

then, i have to go thru appraisal with pm. and i was like 1 hr in the appraisal and my pm gave me that look : i am gonna throw my resignation. and he tells me that, yea, he knows it is a little selfish, but he has to jaga muka...i was like...*&*%#%#...its a multi mil project. and pm is running away...to jaga muka...$%##*!!!

then, went for appraisal with hod, a very short one onli. and he ask me to keep an eye on my pm and if anything goes wrong, go direct to him and report. i was like..what???

then, this morning came to office. received a bad news. bad bad news. my very best friend, good friend, good buddy, is giving me that bad news...and this week got so many bad news...and now, i have to take the lead liao. i am scared. i dunno what to do. i keep getting all these bad news everyday. i am scared man...but i cant show to everyone that i am scared now... and at this time... at this hour...i cant think cos i have to rush to complete my uatp so tht we can invoice out another mil for the proj...arghhh....why now...@@@ and i am supposed to be on leave today...

and today is friday. its almost 9pm and i am still in the office typing away..

i dunno why. everything comes together...

look for a better day ahead. at least i am still here typing away.

help!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

...project progress...

...so long didn't come here and write liao. has been tied up with quite many things these days. after sern hype up the incovar blog, now wanna come back liao to write write.
tms project progress: development progress day 34/67dem its more than 50% into development and still progress is so slow man. the 3 biggest modules is like only 10-15% completed. how to make it on time?yesterday i was doing the project planning and with another colleague. and after the planning, we found out tht we are 34% behind schedule. wakakaz. what a joke. and i am doing the project planning. at least NOW i know where we stand. since day1 of project, no project progress updates and meeting from pm. dem gengz man my pm.
last evening, this one colleague came to my place and shouted at the pm. 'what kind of planning is this. u dun even know the progress. i cant do my work cos other ppl haven completed theirs yet and my modules are dependent on it'. all the yakking yakking and i was like sitting down there...what happened? an hour later, i called him to the meeting room and see whats the problem. after much drilling, finally his problem was, he needed additional 2 days for development. i was like DOH' say lar u need 2 days. then pm start telling him stories. i was like, shit...this is gonna be long winded. so i left first. but even though i left first, i was already late for dinner appointment. tht was why i was late for the kanna curry house dinner date with the rest of the gang.
project is killing me di. i just hate the progress of the project now. and no one is taking action at all. everyday i voice out also, useless. and i am flying off to bkk on may11. dun care, i am gonna take leave!
btw, delon ffk me for lunch twice di. yesterday and today!