...christmas celebration...

...merry christmas to everyone. mine is not merry. just sad case. but thats my problem to endure. i gotta get out of this mess myself to be able to stand up again; literally to climb the stairs with ease. fcuk my knees are really hurting.

its a dead bored christmas. its practically dead place to be in. somehow the peace and quiet it what i think has made everything different. heck my knee still hurts. heck i fcuking hate this time of the year. its so hard to laugh again. my msn buddy wants me to laugh the hell out of myself...