...i am tired...
...basically, i am tired. i feel down and miserable. many reason, one main one being not getting the support from the management in the company.
i am supposed to be the senior system analyst for this project. but my project manager screw up big time, rather i should say, didnt do the things that he is supposed to do to to his perspective, which i do not know what the heck is his perspective. things seems to be so easy from where he is looking from. and things seems to be like the whole world crumbling down on me, from my perspective. ok, so the point is, the executive director wants me to take over his job. but on the contratry, a new project manager is coming in. so, how? i oso dunno how?
but, why am i so depress and demotivated? firstly, i do not understand what the management is trying to do? i talked to another project manager today and i told her, basically i do not know what is appropriate to say or what is not appropriate to say. she then told me that being a project manager is not easy. pm get scolding when staff is leaving, blaming pm for not doin a good job in maintaining the staff, wherelese, the management is not givin any support to make the staff stay. the fact is, isnt this supposed to be done from the management side? the thing is, we have done our role to motivate, to talk and to guide my staff, then out of no where, management say somehting STUPID, then the whole morale goes down. whatever i said so long, doesnt mean anything anymore.sucks! so, who should bear this responsibilities.
i asked her, should i bring this matter out to the exec. director? or should i keep quiet about it? she told me, things that you can manage, manage it properly. things in which u cant do anything about it, leave it to ur manager to get it done. he is still the project manager. i am a system analyst, acting as project manager all these while, taking over his role and making sure deadlines are met. but, the thing is, i need to manage my own stuff now. i feel tired managing things
another depressing case, i have a colleague who is dem good. she does a good job and can perform well. but she is leaving mid of sept. one reason being, hr lied to her. when she joined, hr say she got no .net experience so her position is only programmer. but subsequent ppl who joined, also without .net experience, gets the position as analyst programmer (higher pay ler) but she is not.after appraisal, she voiced out again, but still, hr say, stick back to policy. i was like, what is hr role in all these things?
which brings me to another question, what is hr role in human resources department? when a staff resign, when a staff is not performing well, who is supposed to do something about it? should the project manager fire ppl or is it the hr to issue the warning letter?
well, today i just felt tired and tired. all the things tht alex told me yesterday was like, i dunno how to make it work now. being transparent or hide some stuff to avoid scolding. let me go back and think and think and update later...
i am supposed to be the senior system analyst for this project. but my project manager screw up big time, rather i should say, didnt do the things that he is supposed to do to to his perspective, which i do not know what the heck is his perspective. things seems to be so easy from where he is looking from. and things seems to be like the whole world crumbling down on me, from my perspective. ok, so the point is, the executive director wants me to take over his job. but on the contratry, a new project manager is coming in. so, how? i oso dunno how?
but, why am i so depress and demotivated? firstly, i do not understand what the management is trying to do? i talked to another project manager today and i told her, basically i do not know what is appropriate to say or what is not appropriate to say. she then told me that being a project manager is not easy. pm get scolding when staff is leaving, blaming pm for not doin a good job in maintaining the staff, wherelese, the management is not givin any support to make the staff stay. the fact is, isnt this supposed to be done from the management side? the thing is, we have done our role to motivate, to talk and to guide my staff, then out of no where, management say somehting STUPID, then the whole morale goes down. whatever i said so long, doesnt mean anything anymore.sucks! so, who should bear this responsibilities.
i asked her, should i bring this matter out to the exec. director? or should i keep quiet about it? she told me, things that you can manage, manage it properly. things in which u cant do anything about it, leave it to ur manager to get it done. he is still the project manager. i am a system analyst, acting as project manager all these while, taking over his role and making sure deadlines are met. but, the thing is, i need to manage my own stuff now. i feel tired managing things
another depressing case, i have a colleague who is dem good. she does a good job and can perform well. but she is leaving mid of sept. one reason being, hr lied to her. when she joined, hr say she got no .net experience so her position is only programmer. but subsequent ppl who joined, also without .net experience, gets the position as analyst programmer (higher pay ler) but she is not.after appraisal, she voiced out again, but still, hr say, stick back to policy. i was like, what is hr role in all these things?
which brings me to another question, what is hr role in human resources department? when a staff resign, when a staff is not performing well, who is supposed to do something about it? should the project manager fire ppl or is it the hr to issue the warning letter?
well, today i just felt tired and tired. all the things tht alex told me yesterday was like, i dunno how to make it work now. being transparent or hide some stuff to avoid scolding. let me go back and think and think and update later...
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