...the chat with my manager...

...friday, july 1st 2005 :: it was about 630pm and almost all of my colleagues has left the office. somehow, something just triggered my mouth and i started chatting with my manager. this is what i talked to him about...

i told him about the team motivation and that most of us are like tired and demotivated and it seems that we have lost something. i also mentioned that, many people will look at tms to be a sure failure. i told my manager that, if we do not want to leave tms with 100% failure, but with 10% of success. i want to leave tms with my head up and proud to be surviving tms and that tms project is not 100% failure.

what was it that make this project went wrong? what was the wrong thing that we did?
so, what went well and what went wrong?

what went wrong?
- no project plan
- no manager driving the project
- no progress updates and progress meetings
- no manager setting right expectations
- no manager that communicates well with everyone
- no motivation
- no support
- no standardisation in the codes used for development
- no architecture or platform tht is agreed upon before starting
- no one is accepting the blame for anything
- no proper expectations set
- no one see the entire project
- no one believes the project will succeed

what went well?
- chee onn is in the project!!! wakakakz. help me to make this project a success

most of the facts given were directed towards the manager for not giving a project plan and that nobody knows where and when is our target and that everyone is lost. so many things to do in so short time. heck, i agree cos i don even have the project plan and that i had to do it myself. imagine a 6mil project without a concrete project plan. and, due to my manager's issues, i was somehow indirectly made the assistant manager - no official thing, but somehting for me to look forward to in this company.

know what, i really hated to be in this project. but, in fact, i am happy to be here. cos, the more problems i face in this project, i see it as an opportunity to fight better and go into the challenge and conquer the the war with greater heights.

yea, tms has taught me to see opportunity in problems and dead ends, it has shown me the true nature of people, some with stupid idiot bahaviour, some who are good frens to you, some in which are so dohh and not very the smart type - in cantonese we call them not "sing muk" one. and that there is a manager who is happy go lucky, no project plan, always eating and never have meeting, no progress updates, no agenda during meetings and yet, this project survived till now, 7 months down the road.

how can we salvage this project? and all my manager could say during yesterdays chat with him was, the problem lies in the management. give us all these 2nd class people and this is all tht we can produce. want better? give better resources. i was like, wtf man. i know we are in deep shit now. do we want to continue to be in deep shit or climb out from the shit and make everyone see us as the conqueror of the war and we are back alive.

i know, i want to climb out. even if without my manager's help. or that nobody supports my action. no matter what, i will make sure we climb out, not with 100% failure, but with at least 10% success. we will make sure everyone salutes to us when we return to iitc office.

i am goin to conquer tms prject and i am goin to be the manager of change for this project.